Again, my words did not go through my mind before i said them.
It has always caused me a lot troubles.
Now I feel that I would be outcasted from the group of friends.
When I said that I would be by your side always, I mean it.
I don't make empty promises.
Sometimes its just that my words don't go through my brain when I attempt to cheer you up.
At times, this would offend you.
But, I don't mean it.
You know me well and you know I don't mean it.
It takes some time to get some sense into my head.
I hope it would be quick, before I offend the whole world. :(
I always break the trust that others have for me.
Just because of my stupid words that don't go through my brain.
That has caused me a lot of trouble.
I always say:" I must think!"
But after a while, it automatically stops.
Looks like I have to put posters all around my house writing: "THINK!".
Maybe if I slapped my face a thousand times, it would knock some sense into my head.
I hope all this trauma would end soon.
I hope that its just a horrible nightmare, a really horrible one. :(