I'm going to type this post in full, proper english words.
Life is so confusing.
I'm feeling so confused now.
I can't really tell what's wrong what's right.
It kind of turns me mad.
I don't know what to do now.
Life sucks.
I always get scolded for no reason.
My mum scolds me for a bad temper.
My brother got bullied by this crazy woman, then i scolded her.
The woman told my mum :"How did you teach your son?"
I just felt like punching her.
My mum sided with her and commented on my bad temper.
My dad said that i would go to jail in the future.
Who's parents would tell that to their children?
I mean, stop being so unreasonable!
I did not do anything wrong okay.
I admit that I'm a bit rude at times, but i don't deserve all these lousy treatments from my own parents!
I don't feel like doing anything much now.
I just want to lie on my bed and start daydreaming.
I want to stare at the ceiling and think what i really have done wrong.
Its not fair, not fair at all.
This is what i wanted to say about myself in St. John.
I really see no point contributing to St. John.
I know that many people would be damn unhappy with me.
"I am selfish."
"I don't ever think for St. John"
But have you people really thought how those non-competiton team members really felt?
They always get kicked out of the group by the bunch of competition team members.
Its not that i don't want to help out, but look, i've been in competition teams for the past two years.
What did i get?
Merely a Coporal rank.
I mean, put yourself in my shoes.
If you were just a Coporal, would you contribute that much to St. John?
Some people would say yes, just to go against me.
Anyway, I'm not talking about anyone in my blog.
So, don't feel offended.