It feels so weird today.
Maybe its just all worth it?
Maybe?
Perhaps?
I don't know.

Farewell coming soon.
I'm going to miss the big St John family.
When I first came into St John, I wanted so much to leave.
Everything was stressful.
I didn't look forward to any activity at all.
Every activity meant more scolding.
I didn't like to go to St John at all.
I didn't have any friends, any close friends.
But when it was June, I loved St John.
I wanted to beat Wei Hao to best cadet.
I wanted so desperately. (sorry wh)
So, I joined competition team.
But, I didn't get to the advance course.
I felt so angry.
But, I knew that if I could still join competition again, I would still be of the same standard, even when my rank was lower.
But yea, I missed advance course again, sickening.
This time, I really felt like quitting St John.
Everyone was already SSGT and CL.
What was my point there as a CPL?
I'm just one small shit.
Some people who don't even deserve SSGT are pushing their weight around.
Yes, you, Chin Hee, YOU.
Aiya, was really angry.
But now, I'm here, secondary 4.
And, I don't want to leave St John.
I want go to Sec 5 and stay longer in this CCA.
St John, my big family x_x

I shall stop here.
Baibai.