I don't want to go. );<

So many tutorials undone.
And I don't even know when I'm going to do it.
Someone give me a bottle of chicken essence please.
I keep thinking, what if I still fall asleep on monday's tutorials?
ZZZ, damn.

My dad's really scary today.
He sent me a very touching sms.
It made me seem as though I'm going to abandon this family and whatever.
Made me feel so guilty can.
And when I came home, he made this piping hot wonton noodle soon for me la.
And I was like, I felt like I was in the wrong to not talk to him for around 2 weeks.
Fine, maybe I was.
But sometimes, I really do feel trapped here in this house.
I need permission to go out and stuff.
I know I can't talk to you or reason with you dad.
Cause you won't listen.
For the past 17 years, i've been trying to talk to you, but i've failed.
Only when I got into really deep trouble, then I would get your attention.
If it wasn't for me being so timid and some great friends I have, I'd be rebeling and commiting crimes like those kids on TV already, just to get your attention, just to talk to you.
Shutup, I don't watch too much TV.
I've already lost the wanting to talk to my dad already, cause I just feel that it won't get me anywhere.

My cousin once told me, at least you don't have a dad like mine.
A dad who gambles the whole family's money away.
A dad who hits his kids.
Shes right, I don't.
But still...
I don't know what to say ._.

Animosity today was high.
And we didn't really have much fun as we expected.
But still, had fun la.
Especially when flower girl wore a flower girl cap.
Actually crapping with them was fun enough already.

Aye, shall get going already.
Ciao.

I don't like being ignored. D;