I'm disappointed.
Sad.
Upset.
Unhappy.
Do I have to give up once again?
I haven't even started.

Today's my father's birthday.
I really don't feel like telling him happy birthday.
Our cold war has lasted for 1 month.
And I really don't know what to do.
When I saw him make his birthday wish before blowing out the candles just now.
I felt like shit.
I know he doesn't want to have a cold war with me.
But now, I find it really hard to talk to him.
I have nothing to say.
I've failed as a person.
Worse off, I failed as his son, someone he would need to rely on in the future.
I'm sorry dad, I just have nothing to say.
The angry you just scares me too much.

Skipped PACC lecture today.
Cause I thought it was not going to help me at all.
I didn't know Melvin, Linus and Keith skipped as well.
And guess what they did?
They went to Moberly to K-box.
When I went back to school after that long 4 hour break where I was late.
I saw a stampede of DTRM 04 people running towards MLT 10.
The scene was classic la, seriously.

I'm tired as hell.
I can't help but think and worry.
Would you care?
Hopefully...

Ciao.