Nothing's going right ); Wrong, wrong, wrong, all wrong. I seriously find it harder to express myself now. Where are you la pao. -headdesk-
I'm about to commit murder.
I'm extremely ticked off by the fact that my PACC (Principles of ACCounts -.-) lecturer said that Purchases Returns are a kind of expense. I was like, huh? What the heck? You return something you bought, you paying more meh? Again, what the heck? Tsk, he doesn't make sense. And it seems like everything he teaches is wrong. So annoyed. Mr wong, can I go back to Riverside for consultation? T_T. I'm stressed in school, seriously, especially when I doze off uncontrollably. I tell myself, no, don't sleep. Something just knocks me out ); I can't control this feeling, and shit, I'm leaving bad impressions on lots of lecturers. TSK.
Going East Coast Park tomorrow. And I've a feeling its going to be a dreadful day. Yes, super negative now ); It better not rain or I'd be cursing the daylights out of my couch ! (WTH).
I'm simply annoyed by my own life. Still, i emphasize I'm not emotional. I just feel irritated that things are going a certain way, a way thats not in my favour. Crap.
Attitude problem. Pffft. What big deal do you think you are? Tsk.
Ah, pissed off my so much. Shall stop ranting here, byee.
I know you're not as simple as you seem. Don't freaking act innocent and the reason is simple, you're not. It really irks me when I even think about it. I'd make sure you get nothing out of whatever you're doing. I swear. All the crap you're saying, oh-so-disgusting. I'm on the verge of vomitting already ._. Gosh.
Oh em gee. I've been dozing off like crazy in class. In lectures, in tutorials, everything. Simple ridiculous. I can't believe I dozed off in Economics today. Crappo, I need chicken essence of something. I cannot afford sleeping in class like that. It'd cost me, big time. I'm just not used to waking up at 6 ); I could even wake up at 1pm during the 6 months vacation la. I need more sleep );
Tomorrow's the last day of the week ! THREE CHEERS ! Yea, I'm seriously looking forward to the weekend. I need to catch some sleep );
5 hours of bloody long tutorials tomorrow, god damn it.
And thank you sam for dinner. I feel guilty for not making you unable to reach home till now. Tsk.
I realised, the friends I have now are going to be my friends for life. Its unlike in primary school. My friends keep changing. One moment, I'm your friend, the other, I'm not. How childish I was in primary school, hahaha. I'm a lousy friend manager. And I really wish to keep my nice friends I have now, for life. Yes, even if I do move to the United States.
Is this a war? I thought that it was supposed to be friendship? Instead, its been like a war. A war where we see whos better. You've changed. And I really don't know what to do.
Met Merrick, Bernice and Tony for food today. It has been like 4836842 years since we last met up and talked la. It was pretty akward though. I can't believe I'm spending 10 dollars a day. ALL ON FOOD. Meow, I'm eating so much la. And I'm becoming broke, seriously broke. I'm not even saving any money now. My mum hasn't gave me money for the textbooks. And the statistics notes. Meow.
I want nobody, nobody but choo ! Ohyea.
I seriously am worried. Ah, what can I do. I'm not anybody significant. I want to help, but just how?
Jeanette finally met Ven today. Like after 2376482 years already. But I guess the first meet turned out to be rather akward and weird? It just felt extremely unnatural la. -coughs-.
There are extremely few guys who blog daily. Yea, and sadly I'm one of them. I don't know what are the different reasons for blogging. I blog not cause I'm attention seeking can. Meow. Okay, perhaps only a little. Shut up, no more than a little. Wait, why am I even including this paragraph. Its totally pointless. -headdesk-
I hope I get paid for the statistics notes. I'm like extremely broke already. Oh em gee.
I may think I'm really unlucky, unfortunate, whatever? But hey, there are millions with lives worse than mine. I don't want to live a life with half a body. I don't want to live a life where I'm born with aids. I don't want to be paralysed from pelvis down from birth. -re-reads paragraph- I think it sounds damn childish. But still, its hard for others to understand. And I know you'd never understand. If only you'd want to understand. Imma be the happiest person on earth.
Ya whatever, I think no point carrying on. My points are becoming damn crap. Ciao.
I sincerly am sorry. No, I didn't say a word. But what can I deny here? It may partially be my fault. Okay fine, it is. Its not you we're talking about, its her. But shit, what the heck, it doesn't make a difference anyways. I don't know what to do but say sorry.
Went to Kallang for dinner today. i'm so sorry Gossipers that I didn't go jogging with you guys. I'd run 12 rounds next Sunday okay. Sorry. And why the flying heck do I keep saying sorry. ); Oh my goosh.
I doubt you care. Or maybe, I don't mean much to you.
Ah shit, its supposed to be happy today. But crap, this post is like freaking emo. Maybe I'd decide to delete it one day.
And so, today's the last day of the week, and probably the best one. (; Went to Singapore Polytechnic Graduates' Guild to pass our 2 hour break today. So there was Shannon, Weilin, Weili, Crosby and the guys excluding Ameer. They wanted to pool at first, but the tables were fully booked. So in the end, we went bowling. Seriously it was fun la. Linus was PROFESSIONAL OMG. Shannon also. Nigel, Weilin, Weili and I were like throwing drains, hahahaha. Overall, laughed like crazy and yea.
Theres this Global Geography in Tourism module and we've decided our groups. I think my group is the worst off one la. None of us know what to do for the project, like seriously. HAHAHA.
The people in school are really fun la. The lectures are hard to understand, thats all. Especially statistics. I was totally lost T_T.
Saw Meyer at KFC today and I was like,"Eh, what you doing here?" She was like, I live here ! -stunned-, I thought she lived in Hougang. She moved to Ang Mo Kio already, hahaha. Okay, not funny. But it was rather weird to see her there, especially in super ugly clothes. Meow. -.-
Okay, quite done here, ciao. And Linus, Wendy, Peiying, dont drip saliva over that guy with weird pants ! Especially you Linus ! Your best friend somemore, tsk.
I feel so sticky and sweaty. The effect of global warming is taking a toll on me. Sweat, sweat, sweat, sweat and sweat like crazy. Tsk, extremely annoyed.
Fourth day of class. And I have a feeling that some classmates are starting to find me irritating. Yea, so sad right. LOL. I hope I won't be the black sheep of the class, or whatever you call it.
I just watched the music video of Katy Perry's Thinking Of You. Its really sad la. But the song's damn nice. Nope, i'm not emo. Oh my gosh. I'm addicted to the song. -.-
Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed
You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh! (Taste your mouth) He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into
You're the best, and yes, I do regret How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's learned I touched it, I was burned Oh, I think you should know!
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes
Oh, won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? Oh, no more mistakes 'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay...
I'm like stalking everyone in class la. -google blogsearches- HAHAHA. Jeanette will say, you stalkerrrrr.
Today was the third day of school? Kinda okay la. Economics was superb, as in, really, doesn't suck. POA kinda sucks. (I seriously don't get the monotonous teacher) IT in Business was, I'm speechless -.- I got statistics subject rep, meow. Geography was fun buy boring ); Yea, so far only these lessons. Theres some essay writing thingy tomorrow. Better be fun.
I'm like so happy people offer to sell give me their textbooks. I bought my ITB textbook already and Hazel was like, ); cannot earn money. HAHAHA. Yong Han's passing me his statistics textbook. So, thank you very much everyoneee.
Alright, enough about school. So what about life? Oh, we played Wahjong in class by the way, HAHAHA. Okay stop it, meow ._. I called Jiaqi Ahlian today and her classmates all stared at me. So scary T_T. Oi, I thought I was going to stop? ._.
I'm seriously jealous. That you actually... Shall not mention. I'm rather disappointed actually. Damnnnnn.
Sometimes I find it really hard to believe. Very hard to tell. Very hard to differentiate. Cause it's always so different. Its crazy, yes. But I really can't do anything about it. Even Mr Ahmad Khamal Bin Abdul Said can't help. .______." Ah well.
Went jogging with Yekai just now. I ran 2.4km and got a timing of 12.25. My best time yet ! Ohyea, like damn happy la. Yekai also improved his timing tremendously la. So the both of us were like, oh yay. -munches on cheese fries-
I feel it growing distant. I'm beginning to lose myself. And I blame only myself. How I wish things could just turn out my way.
No, I won't say stupid stuff to ruin the beautiful friendship. Its better this way. I'd regret it, even though the urge to get it off my chest is killing me. It shall remain a secret, one that'd never be told.
Ah );
Okay ciao. Note : I posted this at 11.36pm, but its written as 2.34 as I drafted it at that time.
I had a huge hiccup just now. Just 1 hiccup. And I felt a sudden pain in my chest. It wasn't really a pain la, more of a sting. It felt as though my lungs had cramp and were sticking to each other. LOL, but it felt like heart attack la, just that it wasn't at my heart area. I think aomething is seriously wrong with my body la. Oh my god.
-Sniffles-
Farewell party today. And I got wet );. So I went into Macdonalds, wet. -headdesk-
Anyway, give me 1 tourism clap ! -clap- TOURISM ! OMG ;D
There is only one way, two(to) say, those three words, thats what I'll do. I love youuuuu.
I feel so much better. Yea, the 3 hour talk was seriously undescribable. I was shivering like crazy and then I got fever. went to see the doctor and she said that I may have dengue fever. I was ready to point my middle finger there and then. Fortunately, after 20 long hours of lying on the bed, I feel so much better.
The medicine was really killing me. I could hardly keep my eyes open for more than 10 minutes. Yes, I slept for more than 20 hours thanks to the medicine. Pfft. Doctor's trying to kill me );
Laughter really is the best medicine. Not a forced smile. But real genuine laughter.
Thank you everyone who told me to take care whatsoever when I was sick. Yea yea.
Farewell party tomorrow. I'm going to gobble the buffet down. HAHAHAHA. Shut up, I'm not cheapo. Hope we're going to have fun tomorrow. But still, I don't know whos going and whos not ._. Ahahahaha. whatever.
I'm effing sick right now. And theres said to be an important 3 hour talk in school later. Sick shit. And I can't find any panadol. Ohmygodohmygodohmygod.
What does it really mean? I can no long sense what little actions mean. One moment I think its something. The other moment, I think otherwise. Sometimes you make me smile. Sometimes, I just don't know what to say.
Freshman Orientation Programme today. I met my class of 21 people. And yea, there were specific people I remember. DTRM students have to stick with their classes for 3 years. However, we were told that some of us may get a change of class. Holy, then I don't see a point of having an ice breaking session today when it may not be your real class. Seriously, I find the system stupid. So theres still girl Wendy, who was oh-so-nice to lend me her laptop when mine didn't work. Did I mention that it had to fail me right then? ._. I already know Tony, Shannon and Weilin. (yesh, super stalker). And oh, Tian Wei who felt full after eating less than half of her food. Melvin, who was the emo emo guy sitting beside me ); Nigel and Keith who were lookalikes. Will get to know more of them tomorrow (;
Ah, I'm sleepy. And I keep thinking. Pffft, good night.
You're not even fit to be my father. I don't need the fucking money you give me. What I want is to talk. I speak to you and you totally ignore me. Money doesn't mean everything okay. I'm not that money minded.
Set a good example. Bloody hell.
I remember you once told me, " I'd kill you and jump down from this building, trust me I will " I have an oh-so-GREAT father. Pfft.
You two never know or consider the consequences of your actions. All you think about is your side. Have you ever thought what if could do to us? I guess not. You just make rules and make us abide by them. Unreasonable rules. Rules that make things go your way and only your way. No reason. You just do it your way. And I seriously hate that. Give me a reason why I should obey the rules. And a reasonable one, and I shall obey them with no complaints. If not, I don't care.
If you're still not going to give me a valid reason by tomorrow, or still allow me to go, I'd leave. I don't care what you're going to do. I am going to go. Stop me, call me on my phone, you're not going to get me. You never know what you've done.
I'm angry. No one call me on my phone tomorrow please. Thank you.
To the fucking hag who's already 50 years old. Stop being oh-so-childish, spreading rumours which ain't true at all. You started this war. And when you're losing, is this all you can do? Pfft, pathetic. To think that you're already 50 years old. Come on, your mentality is worse than my baby cousin. Are you just plain bored, plain random or both? If my last day of work isn't enough to make you stop, trust me, I can do more. Ya, whatever, spread rumours about me. ''Oh, that boy is oh-so-evil.'' ''That boy called you slow.'' ''That boy complained and suggested that you get fired.'' HAHAHAHA, trust me, even my baby cousin won't believe your nonsense. You're just disgusting. PUI. Oh wait, do you need me to count with my toes and my fingers how many other people feel the same way about you? Wait, thats not enough, I think I'd be needing leaves from around 100 trees? Ah whatever. I can't sound profound in literature ._.
I'm really sorry Patricia. I'd make it up to you the next time you need my help okay? ><
Has there been anything you've wanted but can never have? So many things. Yea, yea, whatever,
I wanted to change my blog's URL, but I still can't figure out what I should change it to.
You know I say -headdesk- sometimes? Yea, I copied Jeanette. And then now right, got more people saying it, hahahha. -headchair- -headwall- -headsomeone- :D
Back from holy School of Business camp. Shall blog about it. On Friday, met up with Changhong to go to school together. Got so pissed on that day cause he lied to me. But nevermind, Changhong, I forgive you for lying to me ;x
When we got to SP, we had to submit our idemnity form and they split us into our groups. I was in group 7, Mortuus cluster, Saga the witch. So, I had to walk to the seats and settle down. I was the last to arrive in my group by the way, -coughs in ch's face-, LOL. I got seated beside this girl, Amanda, from Presbyterian high, from DAC, Diploma in Accountancy. She was really friendly la, and slowly I mixed with other people of the group of 12 people. Luckily, Taufiq and Qiqin from 4/8 was in the same group and it made me more, comfortable? Okay, let me post a picture of the whole group to cut down on the crap.
I hurt my toenail when walking up the hill, so pardon my facial expression. Top row, from the left. Felicia, from Kuo Chuan Presbytarian, Girl Guides, Diploma in Business Adminstration, easily communicable?
Amanda, from Presbytarian, Choir, Diploma in Accountancy, very socialble !
Qiqin, same school, Diploma in Business Adminstration, shes actually very nice to be with, I should mix more in class ._.
Chin Chang, from I forgot what school -.-, Diploma in Business Adminstation, likes to play with flies. O.O
Tony, from I forgot what school again, Diploma in Tourism and Resort Management !, looks very leader @@.
Me.
And Taufiq, same school, he took Diploma in Accountancy.
Bottom row... Jiaqi, from Presbyterian, Diploma in Tourism and Resort Management, she said she hopes to be in the same class as I am so that she can be my good friend and bully me, LOL.
Bernice ERH !, from I forgot what school, Diploma in Huamn Resource and Psychology, super high. Why Bernice ERH? During introduction, we couldn't hear her name properly, then she said Bernice, ERH !, okay lame. Shimah, our team facilitator.
Merrick, forgot what school, Diploma in Accountency, is super addicted to panadol when hes sick and super emo. );
Zaki !, -.-, Diploma in Business Adminstration, SHEMALE ! LOL. Theres still Yvonne, DTRM but she fell really sick, so yea.
Wait, I shall post a picture of my poor toe, just click the link to see it (; It isn't really painful now, but looking at it just makes me think,'' YUCK, so disgusting, is that my toe?" http://i260.photobucket.com/albums/ii30/materny92/DSC00240.jpg. Click to see.
Oh, last thing that was oh-so-memorable about the camp. The night walk ! At around 12am, they gathered us in a room and played the movie "The Eye". They then told us ghost stories about the school, which were pretty fake. She was stammering like she didn't know how to lie. So whats this night walk? They turned off most of the lights in school and we had to walk around, in groups of 4, following green lightsticks placed on the floor. And then our facilitators would act as ghosts to scare us. Trust me, its not as lame as you think. Their costumes are not just 1 sheet of cloth, they put make up and etc. So at around 2am, I grouped with Amanda, Felicia and Taufiq and left the waiting room. Sadly, I had to walk infront, so whatever was about to come out from any corner would scare me or Amanda first. Felicia kept screaming cause the 'Ghosts' kept grabbing her feet, LOL. After like a quarter of the school, we got used to the scares. Amanda and I would say things like, " you left, I right, okay, right safe, left got 1, shes going to scream'' LOL, and the thing became a laugh all the way through when we started doing that. Someone said that the ghost's baby looked ugly ._.
Overall the camp was great la. I only got 6 - 7 hours of sleep for the whole camp. -faints-
My poor memory has been failing me. I didn't remember that there was business camp on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And it only just occured to me in the morning that I made so many empty promises. T_T. I'm so pissed la. Crap.
I have a big decision to make now. Should I go for the camp or should I skip it? I made so many promises in the weekends, and I really don't want to upset them. I even promised my boss to work on the very-tight-scheduled-saturday. And I don't want to leave my job before teaching the auntie a lesson about her bloody attitude. No, this is not the only thing I promised. My saturday night out T_T. And you know, I hate breaking promises. And worse, I hate people getting angry at me. Crap.
Then why should I go for the camp? Because I promised Changhong that I'd accompany him there. ._. And I guess Jean would be upset too? I paid FIFTEEN DOLLARS for it still. (Money's not the problem actually, not that I'm saying I'm rich) Crap.
Thank you memory for failing me, ONCE AGAIN. ); Bah, what the hell should I do .___________.
