Transformers was a blast ! xD

Wonder whats wrong with my blog.
The old one.

I haven't blogged in 4 days ;o
Happy belated birthday Shenghao.
-.-
You ass, sorry didn't get you a present.
Have fun... loving Peiying.

ITAB MST today.
It turned out pretty easy, even though I didn't finish the paper.
So I'm happy happy happy.
Yaye.

GGT tomorrow.
jy.

read my private blog if you really wana know...

I don't know whats this feeling now.
Its kinda like frustration plus feeling down.
I think my friends have had it with me.
I wished I was less annoying. );

Haven't been updating recently.
I know, been a lazy ass who can't lift my butt off the couch.

So, yesterday, I joined the intermediate competition in Audition.
I can't believe I made it all the way to the finals la.
And the best thing, I got overall 3rd.
This is so loved.
2nd was craziebaby, played by Ven.
I was 3rd playing AutumnMists.
So you see, 2 people in xDANTE top 3 leh.
FOOYO, DANTE HUAT FOREVER LA.
We earned like 200+ FAM points in the process.

Okay, so back to life.
Gossipers didn't watch movie this holiday.
Everyone's so busy, so hard to go out );
I want to watch movie with ya'll la.

I don't want a reason to call you.
Can I? X_X.

Alright, sorry if I don't respond to the tagboard.
Not really in the mood ;o
Okay taaaa.

And happy birthday sister.

I still miss you as much, or even more );

;o, I haven't blogged in like 3 days!
Thats very common for a blogger freak like me okay.
Oh did I mention I'm so in love with the ;o smiley?
It comes out in like 90% of the things i say.

Back to the main topic.
I feel so exhausted today.
Its not that I don't feel like doing anything.
Thats emotionally exhausted.
I woke up at like 10 today, acceptable right.
And I went for work.
So after 1 hour of work, I was dying already.
I felt so tired that I felt my whole body slopping.
Okay, wrong use of words(is that even a word), but you get what I mean (;
Yeah, I feel like doing so many things now.
But I really don't have the energy to do so.
Shit );

Don't laugh at me when I'm not cracking a joke or doing something stupid.
I hate it, especially when I don't know whats so funny.
This girl came up to me to give me something to weigh.
And then I smiled at her, like sincerely.
Then she started giggling.
ZZZ, WHAT SO FUNNY.
I know I'm geeky la, but don't need to giggle in my face right -.-
No, it wasn't a nice giggle at all.
Stupid girl, curse that you step on dog poo at home !
Hmph );<

Is being sensitive a good or a bad thing ;o
See the smiley face came out again.
OMG, SO DARN CUTE.

Okay shall get going.
I hope I'm not in the situation where I care about nobody but myself.
If I am, tell me please.
Okay byee. (;

And maybe it isn't the things we do that make a difference.
Maybe things aren't meant to be changed if its set one way.
I'm not god, I can change nothing.
I should just live life the way it should be.
Accept how things are and stop being so grouchy over it.
Maybe then, I'd be a better person.
And maybe then, it'd be better tomorrow.

Yes it will.
I won't spoil the day tomorrow.
I'd try my best.
And when I'm at wits end, I'd fake a smile so you won't see.
Sound familiar? ;o

Good night.

Went to Fizzy to the clinic today.
Yeah, he was going to take injections.
I so heard you scream la Fizzy.
And I so saw you push the nurse away as she pokes the needle into your flesh ;o
Theres a war going on in there.

After that, went out with the Anties, Ben, Alvin, Weeliam, and FIZZY.
Okay la, fizzy left at like 3.
So we ended up going to lan.
I so wanted to watch movie! @(&*$(&%
Okay zh, don't complain.
Overall it was okay.
Alvin stop pestering me to accept, you know I'm not the final decision maker.
It still felt different.
Empty.
I felt like puking all the way through, so I didn't really eat much for the steamboat.
But damn, it was delicious la.
Waste my money.
Nevermind, thank you very much Ben for paying part of it for me (;

Fizzy's birthday celebration tomorrow.
Shit, I've got bad news.
Fizzy will kill me tomorrow, confirm.
Please don't fizzy.
Don't kill Sylvia too, you'd understand why tomorrow.
But I may be leaving after lunch or so, so yeah, ;o
I'd torture you in the morning then !

Theres too much air in my stomach.
Really vomitting soon ;o
Shall go lie down.
Byebyeee.
The urge just to see you, ><

I don't know whats wrong with me.
I was so high at the last hour of work.
But right after work, I don't feel like doing what I wanted to do.
I don't want to do anything now.
The old problem's back.
Zh, stop it, stop it, stop it.

If this causes a conflict, I'd strongly object to them joining the clan.
Whats the point of adding more and more people.
Its like, we're supposed to be a close clan.
And there would be people asking, whos that, I've never seem him before.
And if you still insist that they join the clan, I really have nothing to say.
If you want to be segregated, then fine.
Its either them or me, you choose.
I'd leave if I have to.
Don't blame me for being such a childish and pampered brat.

Okay forget that.
Work was okay today.
I was just standing around and cleaning stuff.
Yaye free money ;D
And I almost broke like 100 trays of eggs.
PHEW !
And I was clearing up some dust infested room.
Sneezing like there was no tomorrow ;o

I feel my privacy so invaded as my brother watches me blog ._.
SHOO LA JIAHONG.

Okay la, shall get going.
Byee.

I'm starting to find myself annoying. T_T.
But I really really...
Ah nevermind. X_X.

Hihi everybody.
Good morning !
Its a brand new day.
And I'm going to start it positively (;

WORK LATER !
IMMA HAVE LOADS OF FUN !
Okay, this is sounds so fake, but yeah, new day !
Looking on the bright side...
I don't have to go to work tomorrow ! ;P
Yes, its torture.
And and...
Okay theres no other bright side that anyone else should know of ;o

Okay, so why am I blogging.
Wanted to show you something funny.
Err wait, need to take a picture of it and upload it ;x


Hope you can see it, or it'd be no fun.
Okay read !
/random : my sister's camera is damn clear right ! (snap of my phone's sms btw)
This sms is from my class chairperson, yeah please don't kill me for this Ameer.
But it really is funny ><
Its supposed to be spelt as bucks, not bugs X_X.
And if you read on, notice the $7.50 thingy?
My school is giving $7.50 per person to fund class outings. ;o
Even though its not much but still, woah, the school damn rich can.
Okay sorry Ameer.

---------- HUIWEN; WoYaoJianFei! Jy.says:
HI ZHENGHUIYU.
Ur drawng dam nice.
z h . says:
hihi.
and whats with the yu D:
---------- HUIWEN; WoYaoJianFei! Jy.says:
^^

Shes calling me that, as usual T_T.
Sam told you you can be some graphic designer le ;P
Shes talking about my dp btw.

About last night.
I don't know what to say but thanks thanks thanks.
Still I hope I don't scare you.
Yah la, zh stop thinking that way.
Okay positive day yeah ! ;D
Thanks again (;

Wait.
Again.
Nothing !

Ah, I'm tired and don't really feel like blogging.
But since, I'm sitting at the computer, hihi :D

Work wasn't that bad like how I expected.
Even though I was all alone, I found entertainment for myself.
Err, I was, talking to Mdm Angela Thong !
yes, her, I saw her today ;o
She was like, I don't recognise you.
(Uh, cause you never taught me before) X_X.

I will be myself again.
I will not be your worry.
I will be a better person.

SINCE WHEN CHICKEN RICE IS EATEN WITH LETTUCE?!
HUH, HUH, HUH.

;o I'm tired.
Shall go offline already.
Byebyeee (;

I feel unnaturally weird with 5 girls rampaging my house.
I woke up 11am in the morning and to my surprise, I heard girls chatting in my house O.O.
Okay, ugly hairstyle, ugly clothes, ugly ugly ugly.
My cousin brought her friends over.
Okay, I feel super unglamourous and not to mention ugly. ;o

I hope.
I hope.
I hope.
That everything stays the same );

ISMY.
ISMY.
@_@.

Oh em gee.
zh zh.
Stupid phone, stop tempting me.
Ah, come on, I can resist this temptation.
T_T.

Hihi.
I've a feeling that someone's scolding me behind my back.
I'm sneezing like 3 times a minute.
Or is it that I'm catching a cold -.-

Alright, I can be labelled no life already.
I wake up at like 11 everyday.
I head for work at like 1.
And when I get home, I blog, and I sleep after that.
And the cycle continues.
YEAH, NO LIFE.

Work was pretty okay today.
Just felt like some substitute worker who takes all the unwanted shifts -.-
And that I kept thinking about what I said last night ><

Oh em gee.
School work.
School work.
School work.

Ah tomorrow's a special day for someone.
Some person who doesn't think I'm sincere when I'm returning him money.
-mumbles-, Fizzywandy.

Okay la, enough of crap, shall get going.
Byee.
I seriously hope I didn't scare you. ohemgee TT

I'm tired.
Not just tired, tired.
I don't feel like doing anything tomorrow, or the day after.
I'm seriously exhausted.

Okay, lets not have attention seeking behavior today.
Let me tell you about my amazing stomach.
If you do not know, Soybean has to be drunk within 3 days of contamination to air.
So on Thursday evening, I opened the Soybean and drank it.
On friday evening, I drank it as usual.
But yesterday, I attempted to finish it by drinking for the carton itself.
It tasted funny, and I thought to myself, "only the 3rd day what, why does it taste like that?"
And i peeked at the expiry date and got the shock of my life.
8th June 2009.
Okay, so my point is, my stomach is awesome, I didn't even get stomachache whatsoever after drinking the expired shit for 2days continuous.
Okay, I rule.

I seriously am neglecting my studies.
And I always have to be put down, isn't that right?
I had this nightmare last night, and maybe it was hinting me, born to fail.
Born to fail.
Born to fail.

Yonghan bought me 2 chocolate bars today ;o
Thank you very much.
And so I ate those 2 bars for dinner, oh em gee.
Shocking thing was that I was bloated after the first bar O_O".
Okay, maybe my stomach ain't that amazing after all.

Theres work again tomorrow, shit.
And sometimes I have no idea why I'm doing this.
At least I do hope my inspiration would be existent.
So many birthdays coming up, jiayou !
Do it for more money, jiayou !
Do it for someone, jiayou !
I know I can do this, I know I can.

Okay, enough of the bored stuff.
Byebyeeee.
Gosh I'm tired.
Someone cheer me up );<
그리고 나는 사랑에 고민하는 나가 지금 느끼는 얼마나, 그리고 그것의 불가능한지 어떻게 아무도가 이해할 것이라는 점을 알고 있다.
And there is no use trying.

Oh I feel so hungry now, haven't ate anything today.
Wait, have I?
I remember eating Korean food with the salmon and the fish and the...
No wait, that was yesterday! ;O
LOL.

Went to Changi Airport with Sam, Vincent, Cheryl and Ven to send Benjamin Peh off to Bangkok today.
Aiyo, that Ven ah, tsktsk, epic fail, LOL.
Since someone has so many unglam shots of me, I spend most of the time in the airport snapping unglam photos.
Oh yes, I sure got many ;o.
Even you hugging Mr Macdonals, HAHAHAHA.
Shall post the pictures some other day.
So lazy to upload now ah X_X.

Got nothing much to blog about actually.
Just that I was in a fairly good mood today.
Heh, byee. (;

I think I'm starting to feel awkward after saying all those things. ><
And sometimes, I do feel disappointed that I'm not worth much no matter how much I've done.

Today was a pretty bad day.
It wasn't the fact that I met SJAB gang to study today.
It wasn't the fact that I went out with 5/6 brothers today.
It was horrible, because of the past.
It was horrible, because of the future.

Tell you what.
My bag got stolen by some sort of a snatch theif today.
And I never got my bag back.
I lost many things.
My handphone charger, I can no longer charge my phone.
The bag itself, my pencil case + calculator.
My geography notes.
My brother's swim stuff.
My jacket that means a lot.
And MY GREEN TEA.
I'm just trying to add some humour here to make it less dull, but obviously I'm failing.
At least my valubles weren't stolen.

But no, I cannot afford to be upset today.
I'm the happy apple and no, I cannot be.
It'd be better tomorrow, yes it would.
But I really cannot get over the past.

Come on, cheer up.
Don't been like this.
The world needs you.
And I'd continue self reassuring.

Can someone hug me?
Can I hug someone?
Stop acting girly, tsk.

Okay byee.
All I used to do was cry.
Crying just made me feel better.
But today, everything just feels so uncureable.
Crying is not going to work.
Stop being a weakling.
You're a man, a guy !
NOT A SISSY THAT THE GIRLS USED TO CALL YOU !

Hihi.
Was in a pretty bad mood at the start of the day.
Was grouchy the moment I woke up
So sorry if I seemed seriously -random obscenity- today
But after going out with the guys, felt better.

Shit, I skipped statistics today.
);

Went to catch monsters vs aliens 3D with Sam, Alvin, Cheryl and Lewis today !
The movie was pretty funny.
But at parts, it was really really lame that I wanted to just slam my head on the wall
I wonder how Sam and Cheryl felt watching the movie twice already.
The 3D glasses were pretty annoying
It just made me feel uncomfortable.
It kept dropping like no one else's business la.
Watching without the glasses would be a waste of 4 dollars.

LOL, shush, I'm not cheapo ><

Sorry if I made your moods collapse today.

Shall get going.
Will end off with a random picture.



LOL.
Okay byeee.

What is wrong with you la Auntie.
I cannot stand the way you're treating your daughter.
And it really ticks me off that you said she needs counselling.
Which mum says something like that.
Seriously, relfect, you're just overreacting.
You do not go around smacking your daughter's hair.
I seriously despise that cause my dad treats/treated me this way too.
And worst of all, you do not pick up your daughter's phone call and scream at her friends who are talking to her.
I seriously cannot stand talking to someone like that, especially someone I don't know.
If its a debate you want, its a debate you'll get.
Looks like you've a lot to learn before you can be a better mum.
I so conclude that I so love my mum.
<3s>

Went for SJAB campfire today.
AND I WON LUCKY DRAW !
I think I overreacted a bit when I got the lucky draw, LOL.
Everyone was staring at me la, so embarrassing.
But overall, its was really nice to see Patricia, Zhixian and the rest again.
People said I've changed, have I?
its just that my hair's longer, way longer ;O
At first I thought Shenghao's changed for the better.
But hes still as AA as ever, LOL, HAHAHAHA.
Benjamin is still ask cheekopeh as ever, but still, the only one who's filled.
Patricia was so nice to do that book for us la, thank you very much (;
Zhixian, as SIAN as ever.

I seriously felt annoyed that my opinions weren't asked for.
And I wasn't even considered.
Pretty disappointed.
But I have to stop bearing grudges of the past.
Sheesh, that'd make me so much of a better person.

It will not end today.



Jeano be proud of me. (;
I even won Exalted 5 - 0.
I'm 3rdbrother btw.
Look at scoreboard ! ;x

Okay byeeee. (;

Oh my gosh.
So my idol.

Hihihi.
I'm so damn bored that I'm blogging in school now.
School only ends at 5 and I have like a 2 hour break now.
And so whats my class doing?
They're the my school's KBOX, HAHAHA.
And you know I'm oh so shy and dare not sing infront of my classmates );
Yeah thats why I'm blogging.

In a relatively high mood today.
Cause till now there hasn't been a thing that pissed me off.
Except for the fact that I've another freaking headache.
Cannot wait till tomorrow (;
Even though everything seems pretty not planned yet.

Shenwei why you not replying me );
Harmful Haiza why you not replying me );
Ellusion-'s dead already X_X.

I actually wanted to post the picture that I promised like 2 days ago.
But I realised that I'm in school and I don't have that freaking thing to put the pictures into my computer !

My class is now contemplating to skip statistics lecture.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay this post getting really pointless.
Ah byebyeeee.

First day of work was okay I guess.
Cause ahbao didn't come, hahahaha.
But my holidays are going to suck.
Stupid cashier, show me something thats right la woman.

Bleeding isn't necessarily bad.
It removes the toxins from your body, yes !
I don't know why this random comment.
Shush, I'm not emo.

RWPS had last minute test today !
Damn, luckily I went and didn't skip.
Its like 15% of the entire module, oh what the sheet !
And I was like so not prepared at all la.
We were supposed to write an essay on how good/bad our team is.
There was 10mins discussion time with my group.
And then we were like, oh, we are QUITE passionate, QUITE efficient, QUITE hardworking, LOL.
And then we were like, we are optimistic (because we can smile while saying forward module (retain that certain subject)).
My group seriously is funny la, and even though we don't get the job done like 90% of the time, you ares rock.
Melvin was so pissed that the girls kept laughing today though.
The teacher only remembered that there was a test today.
Super ticked me off.

So today was one of the thinking days again, thanks to the 6 hours of continuous standing at the damn weighing machine today.
Seriously was boring.
So my mind started thing of things again.
Sadly bad things.
I was thinking of how the day would be better tomorrow.
I was thinking how I'd be treated better tomorrow.
Then this came to my mind.
If someone doesn't treat you well today, what makes you think that tomorrow will be better?
Once someone starts being cold to you, it will never warm again, right A? ); All the best at camp thou.
Yeah most likely.
But still I do hope that tomorrow's going to be a better day.

It'd never be easy to understand somethings or someone.
But I'd try try try my hardest.
If this fails, I really won't want to try again.

I so miss G club right now.
P.S. the above doesn't refer to you guys.
I haven't talked to you guys for like ages already.
Shall we catch a movie on this coming thursday?
But everyone's so busy, X_X.

I'm exhausted, like seriously.
Yeah, physically exhausted.
I'm thinking of skipping GGT tomorrow so I'd only have to go to school at 11.
I still have work from 4 - 10 tomorrow.
Oh damn, holidays, they're kinda gone thanks to work.
I wonder why I even accepted to go work there.
For money I guess.
Money, money, money, all the way ah.
My first week of holidays are free, who wants me ? (;

Don't think I've the energy to blog on.
Shall pop off to bed.
Will post a picture that I'm so proud of tomorrow or so.

I actually don't mind.

Okay get going !
Byeee (;

School was as long as I expected.
Dozed off in economics.
Dozed off in statistics.
But when I woke up from statistics, there was this pain in my head.
-.-
No appetite during lunch.
THe chicken seriously tasted like crap today. ;O

The guys of the class finally got names for ourselves.
Keith - Act pretty.
Melvin - Act Ahbeng.
Nigel - Act cool.
Linus - Act good boy.
We didn't give Tony and Ameer names, cause they weren't around when the 5 of us were crapping.
Guess mine?
Its the usual.
Yeah, so clever, act cute.

Yeah, and so I'm back home.
Doing the usual things.


I guss I don't deserve all of it.
Maybe that does.
I get all these grouchy jealous attacks often.
Just when I thought it was better, I was proven wrong.
What if there was one choice to make.
I doubt it'd be me, I've never been worthy of it.
And like I said, I don't know that person, and I won't want to.
What else can I do but complain.
Just helpless and uesless.
Its hopeless.

CHEEEEEEEEEER UPPPPPPPPPPPP.
We don't blame you.

Its like the 5th time I'm editing this.
But I still don't know what I want to express here.

Shall get going.
Ciao.
I'm a failure.
And I'm acting so weakly.

School lessons as per normal today.
ITB made me feel exceptionally smart.
PACC was rather horrible, I was like all shut during the lesson.
And EC, was the best lesson of the day la.
We were supposed to use our phones in class.
HAHAHA, damn funny la.
Especially the role play of Red Riding Hood.

And then there comes the rest of the day.
Fengwei asked if I wanted to go to Bishan or not.
Some festival, huh?
Till now, I have no idea whats going on.
The rest of them went I guess.

And so, I went to Yishun for certain reasons that shall not be revealed.
On the train was the most horrible journey ever la.
I just stared at my phone.
And there was this horrible pain, gastric pain of some sort.
So I had to keep squatting down.
Peiying said that I looked wrong, or something to that extent, LOL.

Maybe someday, my importance would shirk.
Maybe tomorrow.
I guess that day has to come.
And when its all over, I'm not going to try again.
Cause I know, I was never meant to.
And no matter how hard I tried, I'm never going to find what I'm looking for.
Forget it zh, just give up.

I'd never look upon him as my friend.
And I don't think he deserves to.

What a random post of the day.
Tsk.
I have a long day at school tomorrow.
Crappy-O.

I'm sorry patricia for giving you such a late reply for the Ms Ong card.
Was quite busy, so yeah, sorry.
Don't be upset okay?
I'd buy you bubbletea next time ! ;P

Okay byee.
I hope this change isn't permanent.
How I miss the old friend.