I see the lights beaming down.
It looks really beautiful.
But why would lights stream down for no reason?

Tomorrow's 'O' level mother tongue paper if I'm not wrong.
All the best to everyone, especially the SJAB people.
And especially especially patricia, for not being able to make it for G club jogging.
You must get an A !

Today was better.
At least, better than yesterday.
And sometimes I wonder why I do the things I do.
Sometimes I'm like a selfish ass and sometimes I'm the opposite.
I suspect myself of split personailty, rofl.

I met a bunch of idiots on the MRT.
One guy was pulling the other girl's hair.
And when an old lady wanted to stand against the wall.
He was like, stupid old lady, out loud.
HELLO, LEARN SOME BASIC MANNERS YOU RUDE BOY.

Shenghao, don't read what you're not supposed to.
-smacks-

Byeeeee.

And the thing I hate most is to be alone.
It just feels so empty.
So lonely.
Makes my thoughts run wild.
And I can't think properly.

And I hated that kinda joke.
The joke which wasn't funny.
The joke that lied.
The joke that made me feel so fooled.
Its a lie, I knew it, but you had to force it upon me.
And now that I found out the real truth.
It justs makes me wonder.
When I feel this way, does it make you feel happier?
I don't like to entertain, especially when its at the expense of me.

I had a nightmare last night.
And it really scared me.
It was nothing much.
Really nothing much.
But it just mattered to me.
I woke up in the middle of the night, just sitting there, wondering.
And the fact that I had school then after made me fall asleep again.
I'm afraid that one day that'd happen.
I can't do much, but cross my fingers, and just hope.

I don't even dare say sorry like how I used to.
And its all thanks to you.
Sorry doesn't matter if I haven't learnt anything from it.
And I were to commit the same mistake again, what for say sorry?
Thats what you said.
And I never dared say sorry again when I know I'm going to make the same mistake.
I just can't forget all the horrible things you said.
I'm not one who forgets the past easily.
I still remember Chua Eileen, and Victoria, and what they said to me.
Its just like a living nightmare, when I'm alone and I start thinking about crazy stuff.

What right do I have?
Maybe I should just give up.
For fear that some may find out one day.
Wheres the one?
Maybe its all part of retribution.

I shall not crap everyone else's mood.
Good night...
I just feel wrong troubling you whenever I have a problem.
Thats why I no longer talk to you.
Cause I'm not a good friend.
BSJY.

I'm exhuasted.
Like, seriously.
But, I'm alive, yes I am.

Jeanette, I'd give you your birthday present when I remember to bring it to school okay (;

Cheers to those who wore their caps with me today !
I called them Cappers the whole day.
HAHAHA.
We even took a picture which looks super cool.
Will post it once Melvin sends me.

I can't believe I actually completed the introduction part of RWPS.
Yeah.

I breathed in so much second hand smoke today.
I feel myself weakened.
Feels as though my life has been shortened by a year already !
I think my asthma's coming back from breathing in too much smoke.
I always feel dizzy after just smelling the smoke.
I don't think I've mentioned that I have asthma, did I?
But it was like, I stopped having attacks at the age of 7 or so.
So I'm like considered, no asthma already.
Yeah, but now I seriously have difficulty breathing everytime I walk outside the school.
Its not the smell that makes me choke.
Its a different feeling...
Ah whatever.

Went to catch Terminator Salvation with Sam today !
Yeah, I haven't watched a movie for like 341345485 years already.
The previous movie I watched was Street Fighter, or Push, I forgot which came first.
And that was like ages ago la.
And so Terminator Salvation.
It was overall, okay la.
The action was nice.
But idiots like me, who take like 10 years to understand the story plot, found it boring at the start.
I was really blur on what was going on la.
Especially when the annoying couple was kicking me from behind on my chair.
Sheesh, what losers.
Oh, and before that, we went to arcade to play basketball.
HAHAHA, Sam's score was like 2x of mine la.
400+ to 200+.
DON'T CALL ME NOOB D:

Ah thats all for today.
I seriously am exhautsed );
Exhausted from carrying that kick-ass statistics textbook around.
Byeeeee (;

-coughs-
I'm still waiting.
Waiting for my information !
-headdesk-
I'm quite impressed with my RWPS report.
I still can't believe I wrote that report myself.
Oh my god ! ;D

I'm starting to get busy.
Shall blog again or something tomorrow.
Byebye.

That post wasn't supposed to be emotional.
Really.

Back to school today.
And it was okay.
Nothing really ticked me off, whatsoever.
Thank you for asking.

Actually I don't really have anything to say.
O.O why am I here?

For the fear your caused me.
I shall never forget.
You may even forget me now.
What you've done, all the shit you said.
Is forever etched in my mind, and I will never forgive.
Damn you.
I never.
Never.
Took it as a joke.
To you it was, that changed me.

And yeah la.
I'm small.
And I'm unfriendly.
I'm grouchy.
I'm angry.
I am full of hatred.
And I'm just a petty whore.

Okay la.
Bye already.
Stop being so funny Fizzy.
It makes me seem like a looney whenever you sms me.

Its not like its my responsibility.

Its not like I want to do this.
I have to print the notes.
I don't even get a word of thanks.
Nevermind that, I get blamed for missing some questions out.
I'm not like some super robot who gets things done perfectly.
Ya, I know its my fault.
But what the heck, I don't even get any help for printing the notes.
Its not like I'm some rich kid who can pay every single time the notes have to be printed.
Ah, I'm pissed, really.

Pftt, that really spoiled my day.

The people don't like you.
I will not too for another reason.
Your attitude will get you no where.
Why did I even sympathise in the first place.
What an ego. -.-

Has anyone seen the new reserved seats in the MRT?
Yeah, its no longer called "Priority Seat"
It is now the reserved seat.
I went into the MRT today and I saw that no one even dare sit on the reserved seats.
RESERVED is too strong of a word to be used.
Its like no one else can sit there except those who need it.
I think this new system is plain crap.
To me, I think this thing is just for show.
Singapore has the best transport system, yea, really.
Then I overheard this boy saying, "No, its reserved, we can't sit there"
Its not only me who thinks that way.

This post is getting incoherent.
Yes, very.

I read Weihao's blog.
And I found this interesting.
http://www.freerice.com/
Go there when you're free.
You can earn rice for the poor by answering simple vocabulary questions.
I don't know if its true or not.
But I've earned 1000 grains of rice for the poor already.
Yay (;

I've got lots to share.
Lots and lots.
Who wants to listen to me complain? @_@.

Shall get going.
Have to start on GGT.
Byee.

I've gotten back my W910!
However, the fact that I can't make phone calls pisses me off.
Actually I can, but I won't be able to hear anything.
Which actually means, I CAN'T CALL .___.
I'd have to go back to Bishan to get it fixed again.
-spams obscenities-

GGT group came over to do RWPS.
Peifen, Huiru, Isabella, Melvin and I.
In the end, we spent the 3 - 4 hours talking crap and doing crap.
We were deciding which country and what to do for that amount of time.
In the end end end, we were discussing PACC.
We're like so off topic, hahaha.
And Isabella said something really stupid when we were in the MRT.
"Eh, why this CABINET so full of guys?"
LOL, first, what cabinet.
And also, why so prejudiced against guys?
Isabella's damn funny and blur can.

Oh, and damn it.
Ven doesn't have school tomorrow and the rest of the week.
-slams head on table-
VEN KHOO. (omg, I so made this up).
WHY NO SCHOOL LA?!
I have a long week ahead T_T.
And I'm so looking forward to the next weekend.
I'll walk up to Ven and smack him if I see him eating at SP food court.
I'm so damn jealous that he's so free next week.

She scares me.

... do it right.
And I wish that I was looking into your eyes,

I'm so sorry Jeanette.
I wanted to blog about it but I came home a little too late already.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANO BURENO KINDER JOYOO OH SO CHEENO. ;D
You're 17, at last !
Thats a good thing right?
And I'm so sorry that the Japanese man failed to appear at your door.
I swear I ordered him already, the delivery truck met with an accident, so yeah.
No more Japanese man T_T.
Don't be upset okay, I'll get one for you next year !

I actually want to post a picture of you and I.
But the picture looks kinda unglam.
So, I know you will kill me if I really do post it.
So I shan't, unless you want me to? ;x

Project tomorrow !
But the meeting time and details seem so vague.
I'm not sure if the project discussion would really happen or not.

Went to...
ERA today with Sam, Fengwei, Alvin, and Ven.
Oh my gosh, I finally talked to holykun today.
MY IDOL, -faints-
Jeanette would scold me for this.
I wanted to gather all of the guys to your house.
And all of us to wear Ven's cap.
HAHAHAHA, Japanese man what.
Okay, maybe thats not so funny.
Oh my gosh, I'm so on form today, hahahaha.
I got 1m for songs I've never done well in.
And Alvin got really angry today T_T.
He has got ven-oh-symptoms.
And I seriously am stunned by the face that ven threw his watch at the comupter screen and made a big crack in it.
I didn't take a picture of it though.
Will do when I go there the next time.

Oh and lastly, freaky, this is for you.
Yeah, cheryl freaky.


Left click to see a larger version.
I owned this renamer and he said that I was using hack.
._____________.
Cheryl, you own (;

Shall get going, byeee :D
And I'm so sorry my phone screwed up again.
I cannot reply your sms sam.

And jogging session tomorrow, G club? (;

Its been a long week.
But hey, the week's over !
Weekends already, oh em gee.
-screams and hits head on table-
I know I'm overreacting ._.
The week really sucked la );

There was PACC lecture today.
Nah, even though there's lots to rant on, I shall not.
No point doing so, it doesn't make me less annoyed.
Moving to my point, suspense account was taught.
And I can't believe I already understood before he taught it.
I'm a born genius right, HAHAHAH, I know.

Eh, whats wrong with the new blogger.
I can't even edit my posts properly now.
Eh woman in charge of this thing, fix it now la.
So annoying.

Played pool for my first time today !
Shush, I know I sound like some suaku.
No comments please.
Played with Sam at ... Idk what place.
And omg I seemed like some awkward idiot at the start of the game.
Cause I really didn't know how to hit the ball.
And my pool stick went flying in all directions.
So embarassing.
And not to forget the fact that I got owned like, woooo.
Samuel's like damn pro la, ;O

Oh, my boss asked me to get work again.
I was thinking, should I?
I really want more more more money !
But still, studies come first.
So yeah, I don't know.

Someone's special day tomorrow.
-coughsjeanoburenomeanojeano-
You'll get a surprise at your doorstep tomorrow.
AH.

I don't want to console myself all the time.
My mind's getting me nowhere.
Especially when paranoia comes in.
It just sucks.

Go away, don't talk to me. );
I'm just, disappointed.

Do you even care?

So you do care (;

Went to fix my Sony phone at Bishan today.
And I'm happy happy happy.
Cause my Nokia phone's like dying soon, really soon.

I didn't go for RWPS class today.
And I made Sokling angry.
-headdesk-
I'm sorry Sokling.
I know I promised to go for all the classes.
But yeah, I had something on, so sorry yeah.
Don't angry lah Ahyi );<

Isabella told me that Ms Jeanette mistook me for Tianwei.
Oh em gee.
-headdesk-
And the RWPS project went horribly wrong.
Now we must redo everything.
-jumps down building-
And they want to research during the weekends );
DAMNNNN.

SAMMMMM.
Cheer up okay buddy. ;]
And Fizzy, you too !

Shall end here.
Byebyeeeee.

My alarm didn't sound today.
Sheesh, and my brother work me at 6.45 and I was like, huh?!
Made me so grouchy first thing in the morning );<
Stupid phone.

Took the ITB test today.
Guess how much I scored?
90/100, I seriously was stunned when I saw my score.
If I told my class I didn't study at all, they'd castrate me.
That rather cheered my day up.
AND WHO SAID THERE WAS EXCEL?!
-smacks-
Even though this was just a freaking test, I'm motivated to study harder?
I don't know.
GPA 4 all the way ! X_X.
HAHAHAHA, fizzy I know you want to say dream on right? ;P

Now, I was seriously pissed during the X lecture.
There were 3 lectures today, so happy guessing !
The damn lecturer was picking on me that I almost walked out of the lecture hall.
First, the lecturer was like, why are you playing? If you want to play, get out and play, so that I won't lessen your fun.
Yes, the lecturer said the last part which made me seriously go -.-
After that, he went, you are not supposed to sms in class ah, -stares at me-
Hello, I only do this cause I understand already.
HAHAHA, you know which lecture already right.
THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE DOING THE SAME THING AS I AM, WHY ME .____.
He keeps looking at my direction la, makes me feel so raped.
And he did many many random things today.
He started talking without the microphone.
And his reason was, since you guys don't want to listen, it doesn't make a difference not using the microphone, you all can't hear either.
The whole lecture hall was like, ... especially the people behind my class.
I'm still sore over that matter.
Sheeesh.
You can't even teach properly.
-mumbles on-

I woke up in a paranoid mood today.
Which really spoiled the day );
Even the way I sms or talk to you people will make me sound, so not zhenghui.
I think that someone is sabotage me.
I think that someone finds me irritating when they do not.
I think that someone wants me to shut up even when they are no where near wanting that.
Thats why I did and said what I did and said today.
I'm sorry.
Paranoia does you good when you're in no good.
Paranoia also does you bad when you're in no bad at all.
And today, it really...
Ah, siannnn.
Please don't hate me for what I did today. );

Shall get going.
Byebyeeeee.

I don't know why, but I still don't feel like blogging.
But for my friend's sake, I shall do it.
YES AH-DY, YOU.
You had better see this or I'd stab you a million times the next time I see you.
Nope, not DYDY wendy, the guy AH-DY.

My friend Ah-dy is in a project group of people who you don't want to be with.
They slack.
They play.
They dump all the work to you when they don't feel like doing it.
Now, why am I saying this?
I don't know.
Cause Ah-Dy wants me to say a few words for him.
Here you go.
For the group who doesn't want to freaking do anything.
You can just leave the work there.
Get a zero.
My friend doesn't have to slog his guts just to get you an A that you don't deserve.
So do what you're supposed to do, don't be such a loser.
Happy now Ah-Dy?
-mumbles-
Better treat me like your best friend now );<

I seriously couldn't get up this morning.
And its only Tuesday.
I'm not going to survive the rest of the week, really.
I was pretty alive during Economics Tutorial.
I was semi-dead in Statistics Tutorial.
I was asleep in Economics Lecture.
Sheesh.
Oh and there's ITB test tomorrow.
GOOD GAME (;

Its not that I don't have trust.
Its just that history always repeats itself.
And I don't want it to happen.
But if you were to know.
I guess you'd think otherwise.
Who wouldn't?

I've lost motivation.
Someone, something, please get it back for me.

I've so much to complain about Singaporeans.
Actually not so much about Singaporeans.
Just my horrible experience with some people on the MRT today.
Really horrible ._.

Okay first up, looney.
There was this looney guy on the train.
He was hopping around and shouting Why Jay.
He went towards 2 girls and said Why Jay, Why Jay !
Then the girls were staring at him.
And at around Toa Payoh, the girls went down and he followed.
I pity the two girls, really.
Sorry but I wasn't in the mood to save anyone from being sexually harassed.

Moving on, I was sitting on the train.
And I smelt this, really funny smell.
Someone farted.
Hell you, go to the toilet if you need to.
Don't release your toxic gas in an air conditioned area and shorten our lifespan by 34475945 seconds you skunk.
Pfft, obi moron.

Next next, when I reached City Hall.
This woman was behind me.
And she was like, "Excuse me, excuse me" -shoves her way out and steps on feet-
Lady, what is wrong with you?
Can't you see that like 80% of the people there are leaving the train?
Is there a damn need for you to go around stepping on feet, especially on those with slippers?
I was really about to say that to her there and then.
But I then decided to shove her away with my body instead.
Shut up, I'm not mean, shes just too irritating already ;x

And then there was this guy...
Who didn't zip up his pants.
And he was standing right infront of me. (I was seated)
Okay, don't need to further elaborate.
.___________________.

Since G club jogging was cancelled.
I went to Era with Sam again.
Shush, don't complain.
I still finished my PACC tutorials okay ><
And ITB test tomorrow.
Better study like heck.
Yay and we owned in Left 4 Dead today.
Played Audition after that.
And then went for dinner.
After that bus-ed to Pasir Ris and took the train homeeeee.
My phone's giving me problems.
So spare me if I reply late, don't reply or don't pick up your call.

Stop worrying so much you worrywart.
-smacks-
Is that how that's spelled?
Ah, just ignore the stupid spelling.

I hope the class pays me for the statistics notes soon.
I'm out of money.

I know, its almost 2 and I shouldn't be blogging.
I should be sleeping instead.
But I just came back from cyberera.
(I know I should be studying for the ITB test on monday, shush.)
It was a long day, but a fun one too.

I bought Student train concession today.
Yes, at last.
I hate topping up my EZ link card every 3 days.
Its such a waste of money.

Then went to Suntec City with Alvin and Samuel to get Cheryl's gifts.
And also to get back my NRIC number.
The taking back of NRIC number was seriously scary.
Stupid Alvin.
So we took like 34549626 years to decide on the gift.
Alvin was like, she doesn't like soft toys.
Samuel was like, no pink, she doesn't like pink.
Then he was like, get chocolates!
Not kit kat bars though.
I almost fainted, you know I'm not a decisive person.
Ask Patricia and Fizzy why they may hate shopping with me, LOL.

Do note, any further rant below is not targetted at any of my brothers.
Tyvm.

Took this bus.
With loads of noisy and irritating girls.
I really wished I could turn around and told them to shut up.
But no, I didn't, cause I'm a scaredy cat.
Plus they were so scary la.
So I had to just bear with the singing and screaming.

I don't get whats with the, "I want to meet him!"
It kinda annoys me.
No offence, really.
I just don't like it.
Ever thought how others would feel?
Nah, I doubt you'll ever think that way.

And no, I seriously don't think jokes like that are funny.
Really really not funny.
Damn it.

And I think I'm really going to barf soon.
Shall get going.
Byeeee.

Sometimes I do wonder what I'm doing.
And I really don't know.
Somethings are wrong.
Really wrong.
Whats there to amend?
Its useless, no matter how hard I try.
I give up.
just leave me alone. );

I'm sorry Shannon, Weilin, Sokling and Keith.
Sorry that I ran from ONOW.
Next lesson I'd make it up by contributing more kay? ><
Thank you Sokling for forgiving me though.
I hope the other 3 are not angry?

Idk what to blog about.
ROFL.

Today is the day that marks the 2 years.
2 years of fun, joy and laughter.
2 years of marriage in Audition.
Happy 2 year anniversary Jeano Bureno Kinder Joyoo ;D

Yeah, I know I promised to post pictures.
But I can't really find many.
So I shall only post like, 5?
Since its our 2 year anniversary today, I shall start with the first picture, our couple registration license :D


I know, Ellusion-'s dead.
I logged into Ellinix just to take this picture.
Forever will be, you and me (;


3 of the 6 brothers !
3,5 and 6, Sam, zh and Alvin. :D
I think my face looks like its saying, "Hi, my Patricia Ng Bei En".
Sam's like, "You want to fight ah?", LOL.



I'm so in love with this picture.
It just looks really nice, I don't know why.
Look at patricia's face, it looks somewhat like the second picture right !


Don't complain that I double post pictures, -smacks-
This has been posted sometime last year.
But yea, G CLUB HUAT AH :D

Today's a rather happy happy day?
Cause I ended at 10.
-prods the number 10-
Isabella was laughing like some crazy ahlian during GGT presentation.
She kept turning back to us to giggle.
ROFL.

Everyone in class went out after school.
To KBox, Pool, Bowl, Gym and etc.
Only I went straight home.
And I can't believe I fell asleep on the sofa with my socks still on.
Yes, I'm that exhausted.
Tomorrow's the last day of the week (yay), and I'm happy happy happy !
I'm going crazy. ._.

The war's starting.
I know it.

I'll never be a petty person like you.

-edit-
It's 11.14.
I'm starting to get grumpy.
Grouchy.
School till 5 tomorrow, I can vomit from it-
Crap.

Hello everyone.
I've regained my energy !
Because I know that...
I end school at 10am tomorrow (;
Oh em gee.
Do take note, I'm trying to make you jealous, so just get jealous for goodness sake.
LOL, this is so Mrs Bureno style.

Went to BBQ chicken for dinner today.
No wait, I don't exactly know what the name of the place is.
But yea, FISH AND CHIPSSS.
I was thinking, why in the flying displacement velocity acceleration did I order FISH in a chicken restaurant.
And while I was eating, I recalled the beef incident at Shahidah's house, which was pretty hilarious.
Okay, I think I'm over high already.
-Calms down-

I'd be posting peektures tomorrow.
Thats if I get it though.
-Glares at Alvin-

Ciaooo (;

Happy birthday flower girl. (;
Even though you're a big pervert, you're still our no.2 brother.
LOL, please don't scold me.
-patpat-, don't get angry so easily yea.
Ya, and still, have a great year ahead.
I have no idea what to write already. -.-

Went to celebrate Ven's birthday.
His classmates gave him a pekan tart.
Which was pretty, funny?
We ended up going to era.
Yea, just Ven, Sam and I.
We saw blood there, which seriously looked like curry.
And birthday flower kept insisting it was blood.
-smacks-
Don't scare us la.

Its all in my head.
My paranoia has caused me nothing but trouble.
I doubt too much.
I don't trust.
Its no one else's fault, but mine.
And I shouldn't blame anyone for this.

And I cannot sleep.
I'm tired, but I won't sleep.

Glaciers melting in the dead of night.
And the superstars get sucked into the supermassive.

I have no idea why I feel so moodless all of a sudden.
What is wrong with me la.
Maybe my time of the month's coming soon.
HAHAHA.

I really have no mood to do anything now.
I still have my economics and statistics tutorials undone.
Its just piling up beside me.
I don't want to do anything but just stare at it.
I know theres some SPSS homework or something.
But I don't know what to do at all.
Oh my god, I'm getting stressed already la.
And very moody as well. );

Yes Yekai, Tammy and Victor won The Amazing Race.
Halfway through the race, I seriously thought that Margie and Luke were going to win.
Jaime and Cara were hopeless la, so shall skill their part.
Till the roadblock, Luke became frustrated and Victor overtook him, soaring to the 1 million dollar finish.
Barbeque pork on rocks.
-randoms-

T___________T.
Someone talk to me.

Perhaps I'm just exhausted.

Today, was some what horrible.
First thing that made me extremely guilty.
I cancelled the G club jogging last minute after discussion with Patricia.
Cause of the reason that today's mothers' day.
And Fizzy told me earlier on that he couldn't make it.
So I thought, okay, cancelled.
And I forgot to inform yekai.
At 5pm, he smsed me and said he reached already.
Then he went to jog alone.
I'm so sorry yekai, really really sorry.

My asiasoft account got suspended.
In other words, Ellusion- is some what dead.
Yes, Ellusion- from xDANTE, oh em gee.
I attempted to log into asiasoft.
I was told to change my password and 6 digit pin.
So I changed it and I was told to log in again.
I logged in with my new password but my access was denied.
I tried my old password, it was wrong as well.
So I pressed the reset password button.
The password was sent to me.
I typed it and it was wrong as well.
I reached the quoto of wrong passwords and got suspended.
I had to get the reactivation code.
And it needed my 6 digit pin.
I typed my 6 digit pins, old and new.
Both were denied.
I was seriously pissed la, so I just tried my last time.
Now I have to pay 5 dollars to redeem my account.
And I need the NRIC owner's help.
If this is how asiasoft earns money, I'd make sure I hack into your system and crash all asiasoft games.
Damn it.

Harmful Haiza.
Yes you, Haiza from 4/8 2008.
Where are you?
I need your help please );<

And I was with brother no. 5 just now when that happened.
So I don't know if i vented my frustrations on him or not );
I'm so sorry if I did, really sorry.
Sometimes I find myself so selfish.
Oh em gee.

Happy mothers' day.
Supermassive Black Hole.

I shall blog about my day tomorrow. (;

Meanwhile, Jean, this is fot you !
-waves-
Mrs Bureno is extraordinary.
Yes, she is.
Very strict as well. T_T. (cause I've been made to sleep in the room everyday). LOL.
One fact about me.
The way I talk, the font I use is like 75% copied from Mrs Bureno.
Like, HULLO !
-headdesk-
Yes, many more examples that I have energy to type out.
And yea, she sleeps in a cave and eats lion meat );
Mrs Bureno is also a bimbo cause I remember her shouting bimbo at Shannon when her dad was there, HAHAHA.
In conclusion, Mrs Bureno Kinder Joyoo is amazing.

Wait, whos my favourite girl?
MEHHHHHH.

No, you don't care, do you?

I'm disappointed.
Sad.
Upset.
Unhappy.
Do I have to give up once again?
I haven't even started.

Today's my father's birthday.
I really don't feel like telling him happy birthday.
Our cold war has lasted for 1 month.
And I really don't know what to do.
When I saw him make his birthday wish before blowing out the candles just now.
I felt like shit.
I know he doesn't want to have a cold war with me.
But now, I find it really hard to talk to him.
I have nothing to say.
I've failed as a person.
Worse off, I failed as his son, someone he would need to rely on in the future.
I'm sorry dad, I just have nothing to say.
The angry you just scares me too much.

Skipped PACC lecture today.
Cause I thought it was not going to help me at all.
I didn't know Melvin, Linus and Keith skipped as well.
And guess what they did?
They went to Moberly to K-box.
When I went back to school after that long 4 hour break where I was late.
I saw a stampede of DTRM 04 people running towards MLT 10.
The scene was classic la, seriously.

I'm tired as hell.
I can't help but think and worry.
Would you care?
Hopefully...

Ciao.

I think DTRM/04 can be named the Korean Fan Club class.
Like at least 50% of them are like talking about korean singers which I do not know.
And I used to think I was korean crazy, hahaha.

Can you believe I joined Red Cross as my CCA?
Yea, I did.
And I'm for real.
I joined with Faizah who was from St John also.
we shall get in the red cross exco (if there's one) !
I intend to Join SP bowlers as well.
YESSSSS, bowling ;D
Oh em gee la, I get so excited when people talk about bowling (even though I suck at it).

Ten facts about the amazing classmates I have.
1. Melvin, has an extremely high IQ but an average EQ. (He went to the CCA booth to ask if the pen placed there was free, which was pretty funny la.)
2. Rachel, dislikes chinese as much as I do, yes, finally an anti-chinese buddy !
3. Linus, loves Muay Thai, Tennis, Soccer, doing pull ups and playing peace by the river, oh and yes, my toilet buddy (;
4. Isabella, an Ah lian who says I'm Ah Beng when she has a baby dragon tattoo on her tummy ! (LOL).
5. Keith, loves to buy 4 nuggets and 1 cheese hot dog to consume during lessons and my GGT sleeping buddy ;D
6. Faizah, comes late for class like 80% of the time ;x, and is my official Red Cross exco buddy !
7. Ameer, class chair, comes late some of the time, loves to do pull ups and more pull ups.
8. Peiying, tourist who gets lost in school and has like 834783765385 different ever changing facial expressions.
9. Tony, likes to talk to girls and is very scary when hes grouchy/sleepy. ;x
10. Pei Fen, who doesn't like to be called Pui Fun and belongs to -coughs-.
Sorry if I missed you out ><

Facts about G Club.
1. Fizzy, is crazy crazy crazy, is ever late, has 389473957395 faces as well and extremely funny.
2. Patricia, our one and only female, who has an extremely high EQ and complains that our EQ is low );, LOL.
3. Yekai, lame as ever, treats fizzy as download site (LOL) and extremely busy with school.

Facts about 5 brothers.
1. Ven, flower buy, buys things when he doesn't even know what they mean.
2. Shenwei, ever so busy and inactive, -smacks- and very dangerous.
3. Samuel, ever so patient when teaching me dota even when I feed like hell.
4. Alvin, super loves to act cute, has a pretty short attention span and coolest among us.

Facts about xDANTE.
Oh em gee.
Imma die, shall do it some other time.
I shall blog about you if you tell me to. (;

I'm tired.
But I shall let you guys know I'm alive and I didn't die from swine flu, too much homework or the pathetic jokes made by lecturers in school.
Yes, I'm alive.

PACC was rather horrible today.
I don't get his mood today.
There really wasn't a need to get so snappy.
And Linus, just eat that damn nugget, LOL.
And I still smell black pepper hot dog. );<

I've actually been thinking, what Hazel said to me before school started, is it all true?
I've been noticing.
And I'm starting to dislike some of them.
Its not that I can't take jokes.
Fine, maybe it is.
But this really reminds me of when I was in primary school.
It reminds me of Wee Sin.
The guy who told me, "I hate new comers." in my face.
The guy who made life horrible.
Yes, I still remember.
And it sucks just to get reminded of it.
Luckily hazel told me beforehand.

I'm seriously tired after the long day.
I fell asleep for the first time of the week during Geography.
Tomorrow would be worse.
My energy has been sapped.
And I need to rest in a cave.
A cave where its quiet, one where I can sleep comfortably in.

This sounds like an emo post again.
Pfftt, I'm not emo !
-Acts high-

I really hope you guys would do well.
So, jiayou jiayou.
Go go go !
All the best. ;]

I'm sitting on my couch.
Typing...
Dozing off...
Falling asleep...
Falling asleep...
Falling asleep...

After 3465843524 years, I talked to Benjamin Soh once again.

There was this part of the conversation where we did this.
Its like so damn cool right?
I hope it can be seen? O.O
Don't complain about the small font! -smacks-

I'm relatively happy today !
When Zheng Hui is happy, he hops around !
Okay, disgusting, stop it.

The final 3 of The Amazing Race is out.
Tammy & Victor came in first.
And the Margie & Luke came in second.
While Jaime & Cara came in a few seconds right before Kisha and Jen.
Jen had to go use the toilet which resulted in the last place finish, quite pathetic actually, meow.
Allied 3 in final 3 !
I'm betting that Tammy & Victor would win, cause they're asians !
HAHAHAHA, I'm just joking.
But I think they'd win. ;D

Oh then theres survivor.
Rather disappointed that Tyson got eliminated.
Stupid Taj, get on home la.
Abnormal mental woman, tsk.

Eating toast in the morning is so random, and actually rather funny.
HAHAHAHA.
Oh em gee, ROFL.

A super sian day tomorrow.
But theres a 3 hour break in between.
Guess where the class would be going?
The guys would be going to Clementi's VirtualLand to game, LOL.
And the girls would be going shopping/looking and cute guys(as usual).
-coughs-
I think my class is super slack la, HAHAHA.
And I shall volunteer to do my group's first part of the Geography project.
I'd seriously need help.
Anyone who knows geography and is willing to help me?

I saw something really obscene in the MRT today.
Aye, sensitive topic.
Shall not elaborate.
I shiver when I even think about it.
._.

Shall end here, ciao.

I want nobody, nobody but chiu!
I really do.

Went jogging with G Club today.
Fizzy gave up so fast.
-smacks-

Was actually pretty happy today.
But after listening to the story, it set me thinking.
Whats life all about?
What were we born to do?
I know, all these kind of stupid questions.
But I was just thinking, thinking and thinking.
And my mood just swooped down.
I can't even think straight now.
Everything in my mind is like, in a whirl?
Life's seriously short.
Who knows, I may die of swine flu tomorrow.

And darn it, I don't even have a thermometer for tomorrow's temperature check.
I lost my thermometer already.
I hate temperature checks -.-
Always gets me into trouble.

Kind of pleased that I've completed my tutorials.

I'm going to fail again.
I'm already sick and tired of this.
The attitude.
Everything's so unpleasant.
Pfft.
What the flying fox );<

Ah, oh em gee.
X_______________________________X

Just came home from the library. -coughs-
And I'm feeling sweaty, sticky and disgusting.
Especially in this shirt with an extremely hairy texture.
Meow.

-stares at tutorials-
-goes hysterical-
Yes, I'm nowhere near completion.

Oh, isn't that bear at the side of my blog looking so cute?
Yea, feel like kicking it right.
Shut up, I'm not sadist.

Ah, another one of those days where I don't know where my post is going.
Pfft.

Shall blog about yesterday !
Have I blogged about yesterday?
-alt+tab-
No I haven't -.-

Oh, so yesterday !
Met Alvin at Khatib MRT then we proceeded to Downtown East.
We were supposed to go to East Coast, but change of plans, so yea.
/random -smacks ven-
And so, we reached Pasir Ris MRT early so we went to Macdonalds for food while waiting for the others.
Yes, I eat when I'm bored, not when I'm hungry.
I then received an SMS from Samuel that he was behind us.
I turned behind and I saw Ven, and I was like O.O
(I think the way I phrase my sentences are very weird).
And then Samuel came along.
So we went to Downtown.
Our original intention was to bowl, but it was a public holiday, so there was like, 20 people in the waiting list?
Wanted to play pool, but only Ven and I could enter.
-tears signboard with the rules on it-
So, we walked around like 4 ahbengs (quoted by ven, but actually we were more like, lost people).
What ahbeng la flower girl, LOLOLOLOL.
And then we decided to go CyberEra cause there really wasn't anything to do.
Played like crazy. (points to Left 4 Dead)
And yea, after playing, we went to KFC for dinner.
There was where we started calling Ven Flower Girl.
Yes you shall be flower girl, no denying it.
Then went home after dinner.
I was seriously stunned when I found out that Alvin and Ven stayed overnight at CyberEra.
Bad boys, tsktsktsk.
And so yea, that was what happened yesterday.
Great day, great day.

And wheres the fifth brother.
-smacks insanely-.
Grrrr. );<

Shall get going.
Desperate need to bathe.
Ciao.

I don't want to go. );<

So many tutorials undone.
And I don't even know when I'm going to do it.
Someone give me a bottle of chicken essence please.
I keep thinking, what if I still fall asleep on monday's tutorials?
ZZZ, damn.

My dad's really scary today.
He sent me a very touching sms.
It made me seem as though I'm going to abandon this family and whatever.
Made me feel so guilty can.
And when I came home, he made this piping hot wonton noodle soon for me la.
And I was like, I felt like I was in the wrong to not talk to him for around 2 weeks.
Fine, maybe I was.
But sometimes, I really do feel trapped here in this house.
I need permission to go out and stuff.
I know I can't talk to you or reason with you dad.
Cause you won't listen.
For the past 17 years, i've been trying to talk to you, but i've failed.
Only when I got into really deep trouble, then I would get your attention.
If it wasn't for me being so timid and some great friends I have, I'd be rebeling and commiting crimes like those kids on TV already, just to get your attention, just to talk to you.
Shutup, I don't watch too much TV.
I've already lost the wanting to talk to my dad already, cause I just feel that it won't get me anywhere.

My cousin once told me, at least you don't have a dad like mine.
A dad who gambles the whole family's money away.
A dad who hits his kids.
Shes right, I don't.
But still...
I don't know what to say ._.

Animosity today was high.
And we didn't really have much fun as we expected.
But still, had fun la.
Especially when flower girl wore a flower girl cap.
Actually crapping with them was fun enough already.

Aye, shall get going already.
Ciao.

I don't like being ignored. D;